With her head crawling into the shadow of her knees, she whispered "Yes"
"I can't believe this. You said you'll never leave me. You said you'll always be there by my side"
She couldn't even raise her head. May be it was guilt. With her voice choking from all the crying, she found the strength to reply "I did. But things are different now, it's complicated"
Frustrated he asked her "Why can't you just forget what happened? We can start all over.. Like in the good times"
She vaguely replied "I can't, if I could I would"
The last rays of the Sun seemed to wipe away the last hope he saw in her face. Her eyes no longer twinkled. The dullness in her face was rusting his heart away. After months of persuasion, he had finally managed to convince her to meet him. But all seemed so vain.
He ran out of words, he had tried in every way. Like a kid who throws the last pebble into the evening lake, he just shot in the dark "Is it that difficult to forget him?"
"Not a single beat of my heart can ever say that I can forget him"
Tears rolled down her cheeks, dripping onto her folded hands. She seemed so lost in "his" thoughts.
Time just passed by, she didn't utter a singe word.
With all hopes lost, he said "May be you don't have to forget, all you have to do is not remember him."
With a sarcastic smile and a twisted look she blurted "Huh?"
For the first time, he felt her soul was engulfed in darkness. It was like he was in the corner of a dark forest, trying to fight through the fire with his bare hands. He hadn't a clue in this world on how to breach her, reach her heart.
The darkness in her blurted out "Do you think you can replace him in all my memories?"
"I believe I can honey"
"No. No." Whispering softly, "No.. I connected with him at a level you can't even possibly imagine. It was divine. That feeling where you feel someone else's heart beat.. I can never have with you. What you are now, is just another entity in my life; one that I'm struggling to get rid of.. because it's so tough to let go of you, it's so tough to break all the strings attached. I wish there was an easier way for both of us. But it's fate. I didn't want it come to this"
Minutes passed by. Silence in the air was pinching his nerves. He never expected such a blatant reply from her.
"I guess, every light casts a shadow.. knowingly or unknowingly. You were one such light in my life, unknowingly you cast this dark shadow. The dark figure that is haunting my life now. I can never escape it, not when you're around."
"All of sudden I'm the shadow in your life?"
"Yes. Light fades off you know. Everything in this life burns out. I surrendered my heart to him, it was eternal surrender. I can't win over myself now and I'll.. I'll.."
"I'll probably never love you again. Not that I don't want to, it's just that I can't. As I look at it, life is pure evil. It has the power to twist your morning glory into a burning fury. I'm burning inside, don't you see? You may have not noticed it, but you both got intertwined in all my dreams. I never imagined one without another. I always wished both of you to be there.. till the end, the very end"
Wiping her tears, with a sudden urge of pride in her vocals, "He had some weaknesses. He wasn't perfect. But I never cared about that. You know when people say that love is blind?"
He slowly nods his head and looks at her, waiting for a gush of pain to strike him down.
"Well it's not.. It's colorful. So much.. all that vividness, you get addicted to it. And when that love is no more... that is when you become blind, blind to your own senses. All this numbness.. tells me to leave you forever. You remind me of him. Your smile reminds me of him. He acted just like you, he smelt just like you, he was nothing but you.. now I can't bear to look at you. You remind me of his death"
With moistened eyes he asked "He was my son too.. I lost him. You think I can stand losing another love?"
[This was inspired by a scene from the movie Minority Report]
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